This past Tuesday, Scott Mescudi checked himself into rehab for depression and suicidal thoughts.

Kid Cudi had these words to share with his fans on his Facebook page:

Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.

I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous but ima get through this.

I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could focus on my recovery.

If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.

Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.

I love you,

Scott Mescudi

We waited to post about this because of the subject matter, but we knew we had to. Kid Cudi is my favorite music artist. His work is something that I was instantly drawn to when I heard his mixtape A Kid Named Cudi. He was different. He was open and raw, tormented, but also fun and likable. He sampled Band of Horses, Outkast, and frequent musical muses Ratatat in one mixtape! If I need to focus on work? Cudi. Need to get pumped up? Mr. Rager. Need to feel smooth? Cudder. Scott covers it all.

kidcudi_300dpiI love him because he takes risks with his music. He’s not afraid to fail and he often does, but in a way that’s inspiring. Do I listen to every track on his last album Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven? Nah, but I do love it. Why? It’s a rough listen at times in a way that challenges you. But you better believe I listen to ‘CONFUSED!‘, ‘Adventures’, and ‘MELTING’ on a consistent basis. André 3000 actually said it was “the best thing to come out in a long time.” It’s a bold, internal, and an admirable failure (if it is one), which is something most of us would be lucky to achieve. And this is what’s considered to be the lesser of his works. I can’t fully dive into what his other music work means both as an art form or to me personally right now. This isn’t what this is about. I also don’t have the time to write down ten thousand words at the moment, but I could.

I’ve had my own bouts with depression. It’s not something that’s easy to admit to yourself, let alone anyone else. The courage that Cudi has taken to openly admit that he needs help and actively taken to get it is tremendous of him. I was heartbroken hearing of his torment and checking into rehab, but I was also inspired and encouraged. For anyone who knows Kid Cudi’s music then they know this isn’t something that came out of nowhere. This isn’t an attempt at publicity or anything promoting his music. This is as real as it gets.

When absorbing this information I thought of my favorite song by Kid Cudi, a song that he cut from his Satellite Flight: The Journey to Mother Moon album titled simply ‘Love.’ I don’t know why he cut it and if ever meet him I would love to ask him that one question almost more than anything else, because ‘Love’ is an anthem for those that are down, crushed, heartbroken, exploited, and feel too much, but more than anything want to feel better. It’s my anthem too. But if I saw him now? I’d tell him the lyrics from his own song:

I am happy to be alive
Cause I know I could not be in a place that’s filled with lies
Can’t stand no quiet nights, while I fill up my glass with pride
Hopeful is all I know, how to keep me from silent cries
Nothing I can say
Facing all this pain in my way
I fight it every day
Why am I this way?
A nigga tryna maintain
I sit and tell myself, “Okay”
We gotta find another way
You gotta find another way
You gotta find another way

Don’t be so down, c’mon young homie
You’ll be okay, you’ll find real love
All of the stories, the hero gets lonely
Now is the time to show what you’re made of
Don’t be so down, c’mon young homie
You’ll be okay, you’ll find real love
All of the stories, the hero gets lonely
Now is the time to show what you’re made of

Listen to the ‘Love’ anthem below.

That’s powerful. That’s inspiring. “Cause I know I could not be in a place that’s filled with lies.” A world of dishonesty and deceit is not truly sustainable and will ultimately end in failure. That’s why we’re all happy to be alive. I love the things that I love wholeheartedly and want to champion them. It may be why we’ve done four John Wick posts in less than a month, but it’s also because I wear my emotions on my sleeve and I think Cudi does too. It’s rare to get such emotional honesty from people in the spotlight, but Scott has never shied away from it.

That emotional honesty has already showed that it’s paying off in support with the hashtag #YouGoodMan that has gone viral after his Facebook note. Not only has it paid off for Cudi himself, but for other young black men who took this moment to open up about their own mental health issues when the norm is to be the strong silent types that don’t convey how they feel because it’s a sign of weakness. He’s humanizing depression and fighting it.

Scott Mescudi’s seventh studio album (including WZRD) titled Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin’ is set to release very soon even with Scott in rehab. It features collaborations with André 3000 (as André Benjamin), Pharrell Williams, Travi$ Scott, and Willow Smith. The album is broken down into four acts like his first two Man on the Moon albums. The acts are: ACT 1: Tuned, ACT 2: Prophecy, ACT 3: Niveaux de l’Amour, and ACT 4: It’s Bright and Heaven Is Warm. You can listen to ‘Frequency’ from the album on Spotify here.

Hopeful is all we know.

Take care, Cudi. Get better. We love you.

Heath Scott

Heath Scott

His love of most things in entertainment can be summed up by having an English Bulldog named Spielberg and consistently asking if it's Halloween yet.

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